Well, after really really really thinking about it, I have decided to stop volunteering with Bingo. I have been doing Bingo for two years, which is hard to believe. After years of volunteering regularly, I don't know if that is the right thing for me anymore. When we lived in CT, I volunteered at PAWS animal shelter (where I got Evie!) every week, walking dogs. Before that, there were the girl scouts. There has always been something that I have been doing to give back.
I feel bad about my decision and have mixed emotions. I feel like I'm letting the ladies down. I feel selfish that I don't want to do this anymore when I don't have any other pressing thing in my life like grad school or kids. I feel bad.
But, I also am realizing that I have to do what is best for me right now. They will find another volunteer to help them, just as they found me. I have given my time for two years and that is not selfish. At this point in my life, volunteering on a weekly basis is not something I want to do. I want to do something that I really enjoy so that the people I am volunteering for feel that I am excited to be there.
So, maybe I will help out once in awhile at Bingo but for now, I am saying goodbye at the end of the month. I am grateful for the experience and getting to meet the ladies. I hope I provided them with some entertainment every other Monday for the past two years.